why bother

I wanted to update last night, but suffered an injury to my wrist (caused by Jake, my dog) - and typing was painful. I kept an ice pack on for hours, so typing was also a bit well, wet - and today while my wrist is a bit stiff, and still swollen and obviously bruised - typing doesn't hurt that bad. I get a few twinges, but given it felt like it had been broken last night - today is good.

I slept all day today. I just couldn't wake up at all, patch kept knocking me out. I kept trying to wake up, but kept dropping back to sleep. When I finally did manage to stay awake, I came downstairs just in time for Mum to have mad turn. My Mum gets depressed, but she does nothing about it. She blames everyone else for everything, acts dreadfully towards us, in a really nasty way, then wants everything done for her. She has aches and pains and does nothing for it, at all. She wants to be an invalid, and then gets upset when we won't support her wanting to be an invalid, when she's not and can do things, she just doesn't want to. So after her sitting crying and blaming everyone for everything, she went to bed. At about 6pm. It wasn't worth getting up. Dad said she'd been looking for an excuse all day to go off on one. And I hate her when she's like that. And the problem is, if she ever has a real issue - she cries wolf so often, we'd never know.

So it's been miserable. I'm having multiple attacks per day, so really waking up isn't worthwhile. There's been good things (amazing things, wonderful things) this week. But RL is beating off me over the head, constantly.

Retail therapy has happened as well, my saving is going badly. I bought 5 cheap books and a DS game. I spent more than I wanted to. But fuck it, if I can buy some happiness, I'll buy it. I think I'm just buying escapism - games and books.

Anyways - I am of the opinion that life isn't worthwhile at the moment. I don't know how to fix it. I just want to go into a coma and wake up in a few years.