Still about, staying at Paul's. Feeling like crap, have slept pretty much all week, all day long. I suspect the new drug is to blame. It's also making me short-tempered and cranky. Or maybe that's just me. I had a massive fight with my Dad over nothing on Wednesday night, and I'm still not speaking to him. Not that I'm there to speak with him, but well, I was hurt and pissed off, still am. Then of course my Mum has to butt her nose into it all and just makes me even more pissed off, which I told her. I even told her honestly that all she does is make matters worse, which seemed to make more hellbent on causing an even bigger issue. It's put a dampner on Paul's holiday, a whole week gone and really bugger all to show for it bar a girlfriend who considers death a more viable option.
But he does treat me well, and spoil me. Today he bought me Guitar Hero on the DS, which I've wanted for awhile. I think just because I've been a miserable bugger and other than sleeping, I've done my webkinz and that's about it. When Webkinz can't raise a smile, well it shows there are problems.
I'm just fed up. And I think heading into depression with this drug. Thing is, my Doctor was going to put me on another drug and I remember her saying - stop this drug if it causes depression but I don't think it was the one I'm on, but the one she ended up not putting me on. Whatever the case, I'm miserable and nothing has shifted it.
About Me
- Miss Kitty
- I'm 26 and have been suffering from severe gall bladder problems since I was 21. In many ways, my life stopped at that point. I've changed a lot, and my life has changed a lot while not changing at all. This is a blog about everything and nothing, and whatever falls in between.
3 comments:
Sweetie, ask your doc if there's another option. Being sick is bad enough without having your emotions all fluffed up as well. There has to be another option.
You'll have a much harder time getting healthy again if you're so stressed out.
Please? :)
I agree with Ana. There are a lot of different medicines out there and surely they can find one that doesn't screw with your emotions too. I'm so glad you have Paul...he sounds wonderful. Love you!
Thanks for the comments - I'm going to try another week and see how it goes. I'm stressed/down on other things and well, I don't know if it's the drug, or just me. Plus I dread having to try yet another painkiller.
And Paul, yes, he's amazing. Truly out of this world, he doesn't seem to realise it either, which kinda surprises me, like he worries I'd leave him. He's got his faults, but he's very sweet and caring, his faults tend to be normal men faults!
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