My new painkillers aren't as great as I thought they would be, either that or I fail completely in my ability to stick things to myself. Which funnily enough - normally I can stick anything to myself, or stick myself together with the use of superglue. I've got the patch held on at the moment with 3 plasters and some electrical tape. Given the size of it, it's a bit TOO much, but still it keeps coming away from my skin. I've never used patches before, so maybe I'll improve at sticking them to myself. Bah, embarassing though that I can't even stick a little square to my body!
I'm still on a webkinz buzzzzz!!! I am so obsessed with them, it's unreal. I'M GETTING THE FANTAIL!! WHEEE!!! Oh my, I am SO excited about it! I'm obsessive over this damn fish, I want it so BADLY, it has to be mine, my squishy little fishy! I haven't got a name yet - I can't decide, but I want him so badly - and it will be a ''him''. He's coming all the way from America, being handpicked by Jen ;-) I know she'll pick me a good fishie!
I LOVE all the new kinz coming out, I literally want them ALL. How sad am I? 26 and I'd sell my soul for a plushie. I have kinz still to arrive, a hippo, a black bear and a lil unicorn. A pink pony also arrived, but she has a damaged foot and her stuffing is coming out, so she's going to be returned. I am stopping myself from bidding on anymore. I really can't afford to splurge on more, and I do have enough now to get settled with. Even though I want to keep getting MORE AND MORE. It's like CRACK. However, I did tell myself that I might allow just one more between August and September, maybe the new Deer or the Blue Jay... I mean *ONE* more won't hurt.... (... and so it starts!)
And I have the BESTEST FRIENDS EVAR! Jen - who is the mighty 'kinz Queen, who gave me Sprockie and Shell who bought me Bubbles (Lil Kinz Retriever) - and I really am in awe - like - I don't know what to say, I'm not sure how I came to deserve such wonderful friends who give me soft toys (which in my book is one of the best things a friend can do! LOL) - but I'm grateful for them, it's not good enough that they are amazing people, but they bear gifts! *<3s>
Paul is off all week, as I noted last time round. Originally I wasn't going to stay with him on Monday, I was going to go to his on Tuesday, then stay all week, but I stayed home tonight and while I like being with my parents and animals (ok, mainly the animals) - I decided that I really wanted to go and stay with Paul tomorrow. We rarely get a lot of time together, and being able to ''play house'' is a rare occurance for more than a weekend. It just means I'll probably have to come home mid-week and stay, because I feel guilty that I abandon the house, well, abandon my pets. If it weren't for the pets, I'd have no compulsion to return.
That's my drugs kicking in again. Sometimes - I feel nothing at all, well that's a lie - I feel pain, and think - this thing is utter crap, then like at the moment - I get all flushed and woozy and just know that my system is laced with narcotics. The drugs are also the reason for the rainbow colours of this post, and the lack of sense, coherency. It's 3am, and I have to get up at at least Noon tomorrow. God, I know. One of the few bonuses of the ill, the ability to lie late in bed and not feel guilty as hell. Although it doesn't stop me sometimes :-/ I am a worrywort or is that worrywart?
It's a bit strange - I don't play fluff much at all thesedays. Just webkinz is taking up all my time, but I still talk to the friends from it - religiously, those girls keep me sane (and are also the only ones who read this -waves-). But I got involved in a discussion on chatzy about fluff, which OK, the whole point of chatzy was to bring the fluffers together, but it's weird. It was about the forum, and people on there, and friendships and cliques on there, with a person who wouldn't say who they were. And talking about some of the other people, and just what others are like - I really really value the people I met. How I got lucky and got all the good apples, I don't know. But I did. I ''found'' genuine people who are now better friends than some people in RL. And the way I gauge that is - chances are - these are the people if I were to die, they'd know before people in RL, because my family and Paul know they mean a lot to me. And OK, that's a morbid train of thought, but it's true.
Anyways - I am rambling and very wasted on medication. So I'll slur ''I LOVE YOU ALL'' and fall into my bed. G'night xxxx
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LOL...what about supergluing the patch to yourself? I'd totally try it, but then I tend to try to use superglue to fix anything ;-)
I'm glad I'm not the only one who feels like I'm closer to friends I met on fluff than people in RL. I don't get into chatzy much though because I'm at work during the day and the few times I've gotten in, the place has been dead! The girls I've met through fluff though...y'all mean a ton to me :)
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