On fluff friends early this year I met a man called Jay. I knew him at best briefly, but I enjoyed his company on Chatzy and on the forums. He was witty, outrageous at times - sensitive at others. He knew how to make a whole room laugh and smile, which in itself was a gift.
While it had occured to me that yes, Jay could die, he had beat cancer once before - and it seemed impossible that he would die. Of course, he was going to beat it - then he'd get on with his life, with his daughter, with his new love. Happily ever after, and all that. But it wasn't to be.
It's hard to think of words to say at times like these, because nothing heals but time itself, and no words can bring him back or make anything better. I feel deeply for his family, knowing the utter despair that death brings, and again, other than saying ''my thoughts are with you'' - I can't think of much to say.
But in my own beliefs and thoughts, I hope Jay has found peace and is now painfree and ablebodied, I didn't ever talk to him about beliefs, but I hope that whatever he believed in, he has found, and if he believed in nothing, he's found a paradise anyways, and not oblivion.
Jay lived fast, from what I ''saw'' - but he lived with a strong energy and filled his days with many experiences that some don't get in an entire lifetime. It's not a great comfort, and it would have been amazing to see what he done next, but at least he got a lot from life. He touched a lot of people, and he passed on a message of believing in love, finding love and also of smiling, even when things seem lost. At least for me, that was something I took.
To Jay - you were a fleeting friend in my life, someone I would have loved to have known longer and better, you brought so much love to my friends, and so many smiles to those who knew you. It's wrong that you were taken, but I can only hope that it is for a reason and maybe you were needed somewhere else. You will be missed, worldwide - and I will miss you, for reasons I won't post here, as that is too raw for me to post. But you were special in your own way to me, and in an unique way, for someone who I knew for so little time, and so few ''meetings''.
About Me
- Miss Kitty
- I'm 26 and have been suffering from severe gall bladder problems since I was 21. In many ways, my life stopped at that point. I've changed a lot, and my life has changed a lot while not changing at all. This is a blog about everything and nothing, and whatever falls in between.
2 comments:
*hugs kirstin*
i urge you to get healthy, too, darling. this is just an example of how unfair but precious life is and how fast it can be gone. i don't want to lose you, too... i consider you a dear friend.
*raises glass*
here's to jay and never taking life for granted <3 you.
*hugs*
Jay touched us all...more than he ever could have realized. He also taught us how precious the friendships we've all found through this cute little application called (fluff)friends are. In the big picture, it's not about the fluffs. It's about us and how we all need each other deep down. It just happened to be the fluffs that brought us all together at just the right time for each of us.
Loves...hugs...and so much more...take care of yourself. You're a part of this family and we all love you.
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